I was late to be your first but In shaa Allah I’m preparing myself to be your last 😌
Few of my close friends would say my relationship went way too much ujian from Allah swt. I must agree to it and Alhamdullilah with god’s willing I managed to overcome it.
Ya Allah please guide us and ease our journey to our niat will be achieved at your will… In shaa Allah.
My very 1st syawal with someone special.
And oh! Happy nurses day to me too! Alhamdullilah this year is my 5th year working in this industry. Tough job and tough love for oncology!
Ya Allah please guide us to your righteous path, and grant us Jannah together 😌😌
Alhamdullilah he recently started his job at the new place and InsyaAllah I hope things will get better for him and hope this place will kick start his career.
I can tell he is trying to curb and control his anger especially at his new workplace, Alhamdullilah so proud of him.
1st day of raya, we went visiting at his side and Ya Allah Alhamdullilah after how many years Allah opened up his heart to visit his Ayah’s house. I hope he can push away all the hatred feeling for his Ayah like how I managed to forget and not let this hatred feeling grow inside me towards my dad. Sometimes it’s hard to explain why the hatred and anger just sets in especially when you grew up seeing your own mum painstakingly brought you up alone since young. That’s how both me and achit felt but we’re unable to explain. Met his Nenek from his Ayah’s side and InsyaAllah whatever Nenek wished and said will come true berkat orang tua(: She was pretty much teary, this feeling is weird she was crying saying, this year so many people appear back during raya and she’s afraid she won’t be seeing all of them next year. Ya Allah panjangkan la umur Nenek, hope she can see us get nikah together.
InsyaAllah Allah will guide him and soften his heart and wash away all this hatred feeling he had for many years…
Alrighty that’s enough for now I better get to sleep, last day of morning shift later on and I’m off for annual leave!
Us with Kak Nor & Abg Yan on 1st day of Raya.
Don’t know why today Kak Nor & Abg Yan fetched me and brought us jalan2 to Orchard and Mustafa Centre, plan nak jalan raya terus cancelled!
Just penning my thoughts… I must say my journey with Achit wasn’t an easy one, we each have a past and decided to just live in the present and work for our future, in fact Alhamdullilah I came to accept all of his past… I still remember what mama first asked me secretly when I brought him, Mama, Papa Is and Atikah for dinner some one back.
The fact that I didn’t get engaged, no doubt I was really sad but like I always tell myself ade hikmah disebaliknya…
Really love the company of his family, was utterly touched when Papa Is offered to drive me back home even though he was very sleepy. I just love the sight of his sincere fatherly love actions… Like the other day Achit hit his head against the ceiling in the carpark while climbing up the lorry, he rub his head and selawat. FYI Papa Is is their step-father. Sometimes I do hope Ibuk might find someone who can care and love her for who she is…
Ya Allah I don’t know why today I felt so emotional and teary. After our random trip to Orchard and Mustafa Centre they send me home first and I was teary and reluctant to go home 😢😢
And later on The mister text me and told me Kak Nor asked him a shocking question.
"Kak ckp i tknk ke kahwin dgn u..den i ckp nk lh.."
Hehehe usually Kak Nor open her mouth only to scold or nyakat him, but this question abit shocking.
InsyaAllah if all goes well.
La Tahzan, Innallaha Ma’ana
La Tahzan, Innallaha Ma’ana; Janganlah bersedih, sesungguhnya Allah bersama kita.
An advise once Kak Hana did conveyed to me. And also an advise once I shared with others…
This Ramadhan brought me a lot of thinking and reconsidering lately…
I don’t know why, but maybe Atok knows I’m having a dillemma and called me up and asked me if I called him yesterday which I didn’t but when I asked him if he did dreamed of me doing so, he just kept quiet…
Recently I feel so left out at home. I don’t know things just changed a lot… It changed when my engagement day had to be hold off, it changed when my sister started working and learned how to earned her own money…
My sister used to plan and ask me when or how we going to celebrate Ibuk’s birthday and what are we going to get her for her birthday present… But this year she bought ibuk’s birthday present on her own…
And nowadays she doesn’t even show me a simple respect as an elder sister… I’m really losing my patience…
That explains why nowadays I’m not always at home, I seldom break my fast at home. Even when I break fast at home, Nenek is always pampering my last uncle way too much… He doesn’t even does his own dish…
Achit knows this very well. Kalau ikut kan nafsu and fikiran yang degil ni, I just wanna leave this house as soon as possible…
Ujian ini menjadi bukti bahawa Allah menyayangiku. Jika ku sabar dan tabah menghadapinya serta berpasrah diri terhadap Nya, maka Allah akan memberikan nikmat yang jauh lebih besar. Sesungguhnya dibalik kesulitan itu ada kemudahan. InsyaAllah(:
Ya Allah, kau kuatkan la semangat ku…
Alhamdullilah, happy 8th monthsary to us. It was yesterday, technically since I’m entering this past midnight.
Only Allah knows what we both have been going through, his struggles, my struggles… Our struggles.
And Alhamdullilah maybe berkat bulan ramadhan he got a better job offer, and this company even send me for his last set of course so he could move up the career ladder in future.
InsyaAllah slowly but surely. No doubt I was having high hopes he could be accepted either in SPF or ICA but Allah lagi maha yg tahu, maybe that’s not his rezeki.
Slept over his house the other day after I’m done with morning duty. I slept with mama, talking to her I know deep inside she also wants the best for achit too. InsyaAllah mama I will try my best to give him the support he needs and be his pillar of strength too. And I know mama hope I can be like her other menantu who has their utmost concern of her and her childrens.