Sometimes i do sit alone and just cry.
Sometimes I do feel I have gone through too many tiny ordeals every other day & I keep wondering when will all these end…
I’m waiting for a fresh start for both of us.
But sometimes waiting is kind of tiring…
Sometimes I do ask and keep pondering what’s the plan that Allah have in stall for me in the future…
Yes am going to hit 25 soon this year and to see people around me getting engaged & married made me developed a kinda mixed feelings. I must admit jealousy is one of them…
My relationship with Achit was indeed a roller coster ride, we’re going to be 1 year old together in 2 months time. Hanya Allah and both of us know very well what we have gone through and I really thank Allah for somehow He manage to bestow me with ketabahan and kesabaran. Really.. If anyone knows my real story I would very much say he or she will just give this relationship up.
Sometimes and yes love is kinda blind but I do believe in Allah’s plan and I believe we could build our own masjid together in the future, learning from each other especially.
Been spending more time with his mama and papa, kak nor & abg yan. Felt as if I’m part of them already. The other day when I felt troubled and down, I almost teared when he said he and his family love me a lot too. (‘:
I know things haven been easy for him either cos only I know how heavy his responsibility are right now. In shaa Allah, I’ve always asked Allah to murahkan your rezeki so you can be a responsible person.
And I hope I can stay strong for the sake of Allah too. In shaa Allah… Everyone has their own path and stories written by Allah, all we got to do is have faith in Him and trust His plans…
I was late to be your first but In shaa Allah I’m preparing myself to be your last 😌
Few of my close friends would say my relationship went way too much ujian from Allah swt. I must agree to it and Alhamdullilah with god’s willing I managed to overcome it.
Ya Allah please guide us and ease our journey to our niat will be achieved at your will… In shaa Allah.
My very 1st syawal with someone special.
And oh! Happy nurses day to me too! Alhamdullilah this year is my 5th year working in this industry. Tough job and tough love for oncology!
Ya Allah please guide us to your righteous path, and grant us Jannah together 😌😌
Alhamdullilah he recently started his job at the new place and InsyaAllah I hope things will get better for him and hope this place will kick start his career.
I can tell he is trying to curb and control his anger especially at his new workplace, Alhamdullilah so proud of him.
1st day of raya, we went visiting at his side and Ya Allah Alhamdullilah after how many years Allah opened up his heart to visit his Ayah’s house. I hope he can push away all the hatred feeling for his Ayah like how I managed to forget and not let this hatred feeling grow inside me towards my dad. Sometimes it’s hard to explain why the hatred and anger just sets in especially when you grew up seeing your own mum painstakingly brought you up alone since young. That’s how both me and achit felt but we’re unable to explain. Met his Nenek from his Ayah’s side and InsyaAllah whatever Nenek wished and said will come true berkat orang tua(: She was pretty much teary, this feeling is weird she was crying saying, this year so many people appear back during raya and she’s afraid she won’t be seeing all of them next year. Ya Allah panjangkan la umur Nenek, hope she can see us get nikah together.
InsyaAllah Allah will guide him and soften his heart and wash away all this hatred feeling he had for many years…
Alrighty that’s enough for now I better get to sleep, last day of morning shift later on and I’m off for annual leave!
Us with Kak Nor & Abg Yan on 1st day of Raya.
Don’t know why today Kak Nor & Abg Yan fetched me and brought us jalan2 to Orchard and Mustafa Centre, plan nak jalan raya terus cancelled!
Just penning my thoughts… I must say my journey with Achit wasn’t an easy one, we each have a past and decided to just live in the present and work for our future, in fact Alhamdullilah I came to accept all of his past… I still remember what mama first asked me secretly when I brought him, Mama, Papa Is and Atikah for dinner some one back.
The fact that I didn’t get engaged, no doubt I was really sad but like I always tell myself ade hikmah disebaliknya…
Really love the company of his family, was utterly touched when Papa Is offered to drive me back home even though he was very sleepy. I just love the sight of his sincere fatherly love actions… Like the other day Achit hit his head against the ceiling in the carpark while climbing up the lorry, he rub his head and selawat. FYI Papa Is is their step-father. Sometimes I do hope Ibuk might find someone who can care and love her for who she is…
Ya Allah I don’t know why today I felt so emotional and teary. After our random trip to Orchard and Mustafa Centre they send me home first and I was teary and reluctant to go home 😢😢
And later on The mister text me and told me Kak Nor asked him a shocking question.
"Kak ckp i tknk ke kahwin dgn u..den i ckp nk lh.."
Hehehe usually Kak Nor open her mouth only to scold or nyakat him, but this question abit shocking.
InsyaAllah if all goes well.